I am enough

I have spent a lot of time getting used to being me.  Me changes. Sometimes I am Kollin's mom, Ken's wife, That girl, Aunt Angie, Sister in law, friend.  One thing I always am, is Changing.  I have had to learn to accept myself for who I am and not beat myself up over what I am not or who I am not pleasing today or my past mistakes/choices.

Society, family, friends... you name it: they are constantly judging me for who they believe me to be. Then they act accordingly toward me.  I am a mom of ONLY one child, I am not religiously affiliated, I have tattoos, I drink on very rare occasions, I am skinny, I am mostly vegan.... the list is endless.  Play dates are not fun because all the moms do is compare to find out who is better at what, how their child excels over mine. I hate comparisons. Why can't we all see that we are all doing what is best for our families with the tools we have? 

My therapist (yes, I have been seeing a therapist), told me to read a book by Brene Brown called "The gifts of Imperfections".  It is all about accepting yourself for who you are, cultivating joy, and living with your whole heart.  In order to do this you have to truly love yourself and be willing to be vulnerable and judged. This book reached out to me in so many ways.


Last night, I did a guided mediation. I set out to meet my future self. As I went down my path I decided I didn't want to meet my future self today.  Instead I decided to take a small side path and enjoy it for all the beauty there was. I love meditation and the peace it gives me.

Today: I am enough.  I love my life. I love being a mom of one (this is big for me).